sianz... so bored nw...
jus finish cooking my fried sphagetti n eatin it... n all i can sae is...
it's edible but didnt haf a taste i've always wanted..
sianz...

guess when i'm nt in gd mood...
it'll affect my cooking bahx...
haiz...

feeling very moodless nw...
tonight gg hg mall to meet jack after his work for supper den slack bahx...
so sianz...

working morning again tml...
haiz...

not lookin forward to work anymore le.....

i noe i've changed to become a more heartless person liao bahz......
even sometyms while at work n after knocking pple n seein them in pain... or shouting e those aunties... i wont feel bad or wad le bahx... i'll jus carry on...

a new mi wif a new attitude...
dat's whu i am....

dat's all for todae bahx.. 3:17 PM

haiz....
been finding hard to slp tis few daes....

haiz...

kip tinkin abt somethings...
am i beginning to let go of U after so long...????....
n i tink i may haf nw fallen for another gal le..
i dunno...
n my da jie is quitting soon le... all e best to U bahz...
will i b e next one??
haiz...

:'( 10:34 AM

haiz...

another footballer died le... wad a pity....
read e link below bahz..
http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=457723&cc=4716

haiz...

shall blog again later or wad bahx...

no mood nw...

haiz...

shld i give up now on U??...
haiz.. 11:52 AM

sianz...
feeling fcuking tired nw..
todae ard 5.30pm.. meet shiou at my block den we go to e bball court opp hg pri there plae...
startin plae was alrite... finally end my exile frm bball le..
haha...

startin plae one on one wif him for a while... den halfway thru... gt 2 pple jio us for a match den we agreed to it...
haha.... while halfway thru e 1st match... i was left grasping for air suddenly n feelin wk all of a sudden wif some pain in my heart.... den i slow myself dwn n kip taking deep breath...
luckily it didnt affect mi much..
haha...

den wad happen wif when we played e 2nd match makes mi mad...
dun feel lyk sayin it out....
dampen my mood... den plae abt 2 hrs later den jiu went hg pt eat prata le...
haha...
den jiu walk to my hse there n slack till ard 9.30pm jiu go hme le..
so tired nw....
gonna nid build up my stamina le....
haha...

i will b back wif a bang...!!...
haha...

hmmmm... for a past few daes.....
i've been tinking abt something... haf i fallen for another gal??/....
i dunno.... i'm confused nw...
haiz....
dunno wad to do le..

:'( 10:33 PM

sianz.....
tis morning went to ICA building to get my passport photo updated...
den after dat...went dwn to compass to change my posb de passbook....
after dat... reach hme by 3pm n do nth....
din haf e mood to cook todae...so jus slack all e way....

holidaes is so bored n sianz....

haiz...

perhaps... i'm startin to let go of U le...
i dunno...
haiz... 10:09 PM

haiz...
perhaps i shld reali quit bahx...
after my chalet in sept... i will decide on it bahx...
i've never give up on things dat i do...esp on relationship matters..
jus lyk wad those aunties as well as my supervisors haf told mi...
if i can take up...i can also let it go...
hope i can do it bahx..
wish mi luck... gd pple.. 10:28 PM

sianz... spent e past dae rottin at hme...
ytd ard afternoon went hougang pt ntuc shopping... den shun bian buy e things dat i wan to cook in e evening....

n all i can sae abt my cooking is dat...
e food dat i cooked..doesnt haf e taste i wanted...
guess everytym when i not in gd mood... e food dat i cooked wont b nice bahx...

haiz...

TO U...

everydae every nite every moment.... i'm tinkin of U...
when U told mi dat u gt someone U lyk le...
i wish U all e best...
as long as U r happy... i'm happy...
tc... 9:04 PM

haiz...
hope U can b wif e guy ur lyk bahx...
dat's all i can sae...

takecare everyone..

my heart is bleedin every moment...
haiz.. 12:21 AM

haiz...
fcuking no mood now...
thks to work.....
tis morning went work at 7am.....

1st thing when i step into e preparation area...i'm stunned.... come so many pallets of veggie...when e fridge is super full of veggies n fruits...
so sianz... early in e morning jiu headache le... sianz
haiz...
den jennifer is off todae but she come back work to help mi n in e end...lead to something which happen jus b4 lunch which makes mi drops my 1st tear while at work for e 1st tym throughout my 2 yrs plus over there...

haiz...

i was havin lunch wif mr tan they all downstairs n she called n shout at me thru e phone asking where e hell i am n when i told her i'm havin lunch...she shouted dat wth i go lunch for so long n when i still haven clear e fruits n veggies de pallet wif e stocks on top n gt new pallet of fruits coming in n ask mi to went up immediately....

so off i went up n when i saw her... i straight away tell her dat i was havin my lunch break n dat jus nw i only went for a fcuking short de breakfast break ard 11.40am when e rest of e aunties went earlier den mi lyk one hr ago n not lyk mi...delay e break until nw cos i gt no fcukin tym to rest...
i was rushin all along....non-stop... n to make things worst...todae gt one aunty off,one new aunty quit n another aunty on medical leave... n yet i'm being blame for not doin things or clearin e fruits n veggie fast???...

wad kind of fcuking logic is dat..???....
n y am i always on e wrong end of scolding when e aunties didnt do well n almost all e blame is put on only mi???...

i always give my best at work...n she noe e e main reason y i'm stayin there nw... it's becos of xiong-ge n U....

haiz...

perhaps e tym haf come for mi to leave le bahx...
i'll make my decision after my chalet in sept bahx....

i no longer haf e heart to work there le...

but i'll work there for as long as i can jus to c U...
wad a pity u didnt work todae...if not... i can at least smile b4 i end work...
haiz....

tinking of U every moment.... i jus wan U to give mi a chance....

haiz... 9:53 PM

am i reali dat useless???...
must i reali quit e ntuc....??
it's been more den one yr le or rather sae 2 yrs le...
i still cant give up on U...
is tis e only way out for mi??
i reali hope dat U can give mi a chance...
haiz...
i admit i'm stubborn...refusing to give up even though U told mi many tyms to give up on U le...
haiz 9:23 PM

yeah...
finally...holidaes is here....

haha...
i've been waitin for a long tym le...

I'm so happy.
haha....
it's tym to enjoy...
todae end work at 5pm....
so gd... hmmm....i shall kip e memories for e past 3 mths in y heart forever...
though everytym i feel lyk givin up.... in e end i didnt...
i've proven myself le....

haha...

nw feelin so sianz....

hope my holidaes will not b sianz..

haha...

tink of tmr wrk jiu super sianz le....
dunno wad to do le...

haiz....

i'm tinking of u every moment.... 8:58 PM

hmmm.... dunno wad to say...
todae end work at ard 8.30pm den reach hme abt 1 hr later...
so tired....

but never mind....

one more dae to my holidaes le...

haha....

yeah...
can do wadever i wan le..... but e most impt thing is to plae bball as often as possible....
haha...

gg to slp soon le... tc everyone...

every dae every moment... u're on my mind.... 10:45 PM

haha...
i'm finally here to blog le...

shall start wif last fridae bahx...

last fridae no nid go back office cos boss give us off....

den in e afternoon....
meet sharlyn at amk hub to watch jay zhou de secret at e 4pm de show....
n all i can sae is... e movie is superb.... n it's very touching..
haha...

den after dat i accompany her walk ard amk till ard 7pm b4 we went back to hougang...
den send her home le i rush back to hougang pt de sakae sushi to meet tom,jennifer n wendy for dinner... btw e tym i reach there....they almost finish e food le but...when i come...they ask mi to order my food while they order somemore food for all of us..
haha...
so shiok...
n it's jennifer treat as well..

haha....

den dat's all abt fridae bahx...

nw i shall tok abt sat...

haha...


sat went work frm 7am-3pm only...
cos going to meet jack go sim lim square buy my hp de M2 card...

haha...

den after dat go vivocity eat e hk restaurant.... n all i can sae is...
it's damn gd...

i'm lovin it...
haha....


den on sun....

work frm 7am-10pm...

whole dae was lyk non-stop lyk dat....
super tiring...
but it's worth it...
cos i wan c HER work.... n dat makes my dae...

haha....

den ytd...

as usual,went office n work...
den at nite ard 8pm lyk dat....
meet jack at hougang plaza there to plae pool...

n congratulations to jack for winning mi throughout e 1 hr de pool sessions...
was able to take advantage when i'm in bad mood thks to one song which was played in e pool centre jus when i was startin to plae...

sianz.....

abt todae.. also same...went back office to work..
so sianz...

anyway...

3 more daes to holidaes le...
haha...

i'm loving it...jus nid to tahan only 3 more pathetic daes...

hahaha...

i shall stop here....

tc everyone...

To HER...i will wait for U de.... 9:12 PM

gd morning...

hmmm...todae so gd..no nid go back office....
haha...

so now i'm online le...
haha...

later in e evening maybe going out to meet someone though it's not confirm yet....
but i'm looking forward to going out wif shiou n jack tomolo evening or maybe earlier depending on wad tym i finish work..

haha...

shall update abt ytd bahx..

ytd started work at 7am n end at 5pm...
all i can sae is...it's very tired....not much tym to rest de....
sianz....

but luckily b4 i go hme... i managed to c HER....

haha...

den ytd nite ard 8pm went dwn to compass to meet shiou den after dat....

walk dwn to hg mall to meet jack at ard 10.30pm...

den had supper wif them at 401 den chat until ard 12am den i walk hme le...

dat's all abt ytd bahz..

nw feeling so sianz...



5 more daes to e end of my attachment n e start of my holidaes....

counting dwn now...

everydae,every nite..i'm tinking of U.. 11:01 AM

hmmm....
todae work was alrite bahx...

haha...

leave e place as usual den went hougang pt ntuc to meet xiong-ge for dinner den shun bian take my pay slip..
haha...

up till nw..
still struggling to use my new de hp to sms...
sianz..
nvm,....hope i'll get used to it asap...

haha...

tinking of tml nid work morning jiu sianz le...
so bored...
but tinking of fri no nid go back office jiu happy le..

hope tml work i can tahan until 5pm or 10pm..
hahaha...

U're always on my mind n i will not forget U cos i simply loves U too much le..
as simple as dat... 10:05 PM

haha....
i'm here to blog le...
hmmmm...
ytd changed my phone to e SE k800i... haha...
so happy...

hmmmm....
shall update more next tym bahx....

all i can sae nw is..

i wont give up on U... 10:25 PM

hmmm...i'm here to write a very short pose...
shall update more later bahx...

after wad happen on dat dae...
i've been tinking abt somethings...
i will wait for U de...
mark my words.....
i believe in fate....
U're my motivation dat kips mi running on n on without giving up...
even if U sae it's impossible between us...
i'll still cling onto it de...
i won give up on U de...
trust mi... 4:16 PM

haiz...jus wake up not too long ago...
didnt slp much last nite as i was tinking abt some matters..
but b4 i go work..
i'm here to update le..

tis few daes haf nt been gd for mi....perhaps i'll force myself to give up on HER bahx n todae shall b e dae i'll force myself to do so...
hope i'll succeed tis tym...

dunno wad to say le...

n to HER....
i'll make sure i'll forget U...
tc... 6:21 AM

haiz...
jus gt HER reply when chat wif HER online..
it's just impossible between us...

haha...
i've failed again le..

haiz.. 10:37 PM

haha...
i'm here to blog again le..
dunno wad to say le...

whole dae kip tinking of HER..
wondering hw SHE is lyk nw.......

den todae kip tinkin of something....
perhaps...afterall... i nid to quit e ntuc job bahx n move on to something new or wad bahx.......
i've given myself 2 deadlines over there le...those 2 dates i've set will b e dae i'll make my final decision on whether to stay or quit le...

my heart is no longer there le...i've given my best throughout e 2 yrs plus working at there le...

haiz..

my mood sucks...

:'( 9:54 PM